What I want

I was never confident about how I look. But there will always be people who will appreciate what I have. 

Well, first on the few people on the list is my mom. Galing ako sa kanya e! She has no choice! Pag sinabi niyang pangit ako, aba e pangit din siya. 

But after my mom, mostly are my family and friends which is quite expected. 

I do not see myself as someone na pinagsakluban ng langit at lupa. Hindi ako pangit. But I am not THAT beautiful. I will always be jealous of other people who are THAT beautiful.

So how do I define beautiful? 

1. Good skin. I believe that even if you are not that beautiful, when you have a good skin then you are okay. In our family, we are not blessed with a skin na tipong wala ng pores. I have always wanted that... yung parang phinotoshop (reduce noise and effect hahaha!). ;)

2. Healthy and toned body. This is quite hard to achieve since I am no fan of exercise. But I have given it a shot and I hope I will have enough determination to achieve my goal. Gusto ko pang pumayat. I want to lose all my unwanted flabs. They are everywhere but mostly on my face, tummy and arms. 

I don't aspire to have a model-like body (pero kung pwede why not but I know it's not my body frame). A beautiful person should have the right amount of curves.

3. Intelligent mind. I am always in awe whenever I meet a person who thinks well. I always find them beautiful. I am no Einstein but I would like to think that I am smart and wise. There are different kinds of intelligence and I believe I have the average amount of all kinds. 

I am a bit curious. I ask questions. But I have always wished for a more intellectual mind. Yung tipong tumatop ng board. Hahahaha! Kidding! But yeah, this is is the one thing I have always wanted. Lagi kong iniisip, sana mas matalino pa ako. 

4. Kind heart. Nothing is more beautiful than a person with a kind heart. When you have such kind of heart, I believe it will show in your body. Gumaganda ka. Gumagwapo ka. And I believe a kind heart will most of the time equate to a happy heart. And happiness makes everyone beautiful! :)


I always wanted more for myself. It's human nature. If I go to the specifics of what I want to improve baka maging nobela na ito. But wanting something will not be yours until you work for it. Hindi pwedeng gusto lang. There should be the drive and the commitment to achieve what you want. 

Define it. Be specific. I always remember one of my professors in college when she told us about how she prays and asks to God. She told us to be specific... sabi niya kung gusto ninyo ng 100% sa exam ninyo sabihin ninyo sa Kanya. In that way, one would know what s/he really wants. When you know it, it will be much easier to plan on how to get it. 

I will be beautiful. I am working on it. I planned and I want it. ;)